guess what i cant sleep again

Seems like a common problem , insomnia well att his time of year anyway ok its only just after midnight but i should be sleeping . Anyway these blogs or at least some of them should be a record or the business im in , so in years to come i can refer back with fond memories , ok just memories then.
Right technically we are now on week 9 ,getting busy now prims are selling well although we seem to have less than normal, i think this is because more containers are being done, labels as ever arent ordered but im working on it ,, ongoing process , trying to rent accomidation for some polish workers that worked last year , this renting is new to me and seems to be governed by its own unique set of rules , ie expensive and not the easiest to find as we go to press im am averaging £400 pcm and thats unfurnished .
Back to business , first open day tomorrow , we cash and carry open day , maybe thats why i cant sleep , maybe not , things have been planned out well and i have had little to do with it .having said that nothing is straightforward and i see trouble ahead .
Weather a great british concern , well to be honest its no worse than usual just seems to have been a windy year to date , just makes my running phaze all the more difficult nonetheless i seem to gain a sense of timeout from running that has been mising in the previous years. Who cares that lycra and my legs dont go , you might i dont anymore , being forty something now makes me wonder where the years have went , lately its not just the years more the weeks too seem to be rushing by.
So one of my annual nights out tomorrow , sportsmans dinner at lanark this time on behalf of the rotary club of carluke , always a good male night, meal and then speakers talking about a subject i know very little about .... sport , but its funny and filled with jokes i can never remeber in the morning,, usually i cant remeber the morning , but this year i intend to be a little more reserved with my alcohol intake ... must be age creeping up on me ..
Ah was in glasgow today , had to park and required change to make sure parking meter wasnt ripping me off , anyway luckily someone was there wanting change , his poor cup only had coppers , but my request to change a pound coin for a fifty pence was soon accomidated . so i look apon his marketing stragergy as the old ppolystyrene cup and the few coppers , or does he just know that having parked my car i dont want it damaged in anyway , who knows but selling his situation he did well.
the only other reference to begging for money i have was way back when a young , very young 14 ish boy came up to me in edinburgh asking for money , hed been in town to buy his sister a present and lost his busfare home to fife ,, in tears he was , turns out the very same boy 3 months later approached me with the same story ,, owe how i felt so ripped off , the little boy felt somewhat tense from my grip round this collar.........lesson learnt ,,, i thought so , but life will con us all at one point or another ,,,, its sad but thats life aint it ...................so much for my business like blog

its one of those cant sleep blogs

lying in bed my mind is turning and im thinking, laughter apparently keeps us young, well I laugh a bit , my staff may say otherwise, but i do, but if i think back to when laughter was painful , rel laughter , laughter as a child when it hurt , when you curl up and cry just with laughter, , thats a rare occurance, so much so im thinking when was the last time, well i remeber must be 5 years ago , have to admit influenced by drink , but something so insignificant resulted in uncontrolable laughter, unfortunatley not shared by all , but me and another hurt with laughter.
another time in kenya , again something in nothing resulted in painful laughter, contagious in its effect resulting in histerics amongst the few.
on the opposite side i look at sadness , a deep emotional sadness luckily to date those events have been few , but one will stay with me forever , im sure we all have had a day when time has stopped , for me was when i ran over my dog , killing him instantly , i memory so clear even after 16 years , that day stood still and on reflection they have been more days like that than laughter, ok im looking at the extremes in emotions not to be confused by everyday events.
Images can provoke the same sense of emotion , there is one that sticks in my mind , a child and a vulture , i remember first seeing it in the midst of may during our hellish 100 hour 8 day weeks , the never ending workload, the never ending ringing of the phone , the madness of commerce and then a little picture of a child and this vulture stopped my life, albeit for a thought and tears of sadness ran down my face . A single image stopped my life for a second the same feeling when my dog was killed a raw emotion that makes us who we are . coincidently the picture tells half the story , the photography regreted walking away and couldnt live with it. do i have a moral in all this ......... no ..........its just reflection ..... i cant sleep ..

the picture and story you can see ... just google "child and vulture picture"

technology

Well this latest technology is new to me and I dont know if i can use it that well. But as ever I am keen to experiment and if you are wondering what it is , you will need sound. It is my first attempt at talking about a picture. I see potential especially with the convair project., but for now it has taken me ages to get this far and i havent done what i was supposed to do . Anyway i hope it works .

Cant sleep

Common thing at this time of year , to much on my mind , so I cant sleep , Nytol , no thanks makes me dizzy and if you miss the drowsy bit 20 mins in it has opposite effect , anyway seems like Ive spent one and a half hours tidying up our website . It is now more organised with an index page , nothing fancy with flash and gimmicks just a list of links with other links that eventually gets the page , hopefully by now most people will use back button rather than me inserting another back link . So i was thinking just last night , when i was but a lad at primary school and keen to integrate , life was not that easy , at football or for that matter most sports , i was the last to be picked to play and even then destined for the goals . Funny now when it comes to interviewing potential workers i find myself in the opposite position. The same rules apply or are we allowed to adopt the same rules , probably not . Am i now allowed to tell people they re not good enough to be in my team , or destined for the goals , I dont think so ............find another team I think. Is this part of the circle of life ........................lifes what you make it ,, it cant be tails all the time ....................heads i win .

spring is here..... well today anyway

What a difference a little sun makes , people smile , well i do , and work seems more pleasant , sun is a good thing , feel good factor and when we are in the summer then its need to be feel factor 15 or so . Anyway our little plants seem to like the nice weather to , the green is greener there flowers brighter and of course the buying public more interested .
A variety of customer plants make there way thro here and its been noticed that Focus the DIY store seems content in offering buy one get one free and in the case of conifers buy 1 get 2 free ,, fair enough , i question the fact does the public or buying customer need two . I have been prone to fall for this but i end up with 2 when i only need one , not so good for the enviroment .
Anyway i notice lots of companys have little saying now like tesco " every little helps " and iceland " mums go to iceland " ok something like that .. i reckon we need one , i did mention to a supplier today that they might adopt "keeping china busy " withen there logo .. i have to confess our nursery has been know as little russia ,,, but im afraid to say its more like little poland now and by all accounts glasgow is big poland . Big issue sales people , ity may be an idea to publish a polish language addition .......... time i stopped writing before i get myself into trouble

Speadsheets

yesterday was a long day .............................my battle to redo a spreadsheet begun in ernest , figures had to be changed .......... now i reckon i need a widescreen monitor so all the figures fit in the one screen , having battled with freeze window and finally mastered it later on in the day , i could sense it wasnt going to be easy .
For speed i decided to edit on pages and copy and paste it to the other worksheets that corresponded .................not a good idea suddenly newcastle figures were birminghams , glasgows were ayr , but luckily undo edit manage to work it s way thro the 20 odd inputs.
Colour was another tool i adopted , lets make each worksheet a separate colour . Good idea until you print in black and white , nonetheless a quick phone call soon ordered new colour printer.
Its like everything in this world if you do something often enough it becomes second nature , the problem is running your own business means i have to do a wide ranch of things but not very often ... so all to often the red tape of the world we live in cant be solved with a quick phone call it now requires endless forms of one code or another the latest being required CT41G by her majesty ..... now if it was a pink one then i might find it easier ..................................just a little idea

scared.....................obviously

It was with amusement that i see some passengers on the troubled 777 at heathrow are seeking legal advice on sueing. British Airways in there wisdom have offered the traumatised passengers a "fear of flying " course ...... now call me stupid but after surviving a plane crash that isnt supposed to crash to be offered a course on how ton how to overcome the fear of whats not going to happen , when it happens is beyond me .. ok my explantion and grammer aint to clever there but you know what i mean .. I think BA might have aggrivated their situation somewhat.

Takes me back to my parachuting days and the fear i had to overcome ,, a fear which would make me feel sick prior to jumping , but still full in the knowledge that the chute will open ... alas not this is never guarenteed so hence the fear . By again its the fear that made me do it , again and again and once that fear goes then is there any reason to jump, the adrenaline rush gone , well it does go so skydivers push themselves to another level and other skills to keep that rush alive.

Alas my once a year skydive this year met with the same antrepitation, ok only a tandem but as i sat in the plane i wondered why ... why am i doing this again, the mere fact someone was killed two days prior jumping from the said same aeroplane didnt help , but the waivers were signed and the jump completed and that rush of adrenaline made the day complete .

I do think that the crew and passengers of that fatefull flight would have had a similar rush with an added amount of shock to make there day unforgetable .

Well BA its not the fear of flying its the fear of dieing .

quotes ........i like quotes

These arent mine i found them on another blog , some made me laugh
here are some that i enjoyed..... takes me back to my college days when id compose the odd little saying , etch them on a desk and sign as "sky" .. in my enthusiasm i used to print them up and post them about the college , thus creating the wonder of who is sky , , not that difficult to find out considering my attire at Auchincruive was somewhat none conformist to put it mildly in its farming enviroment.
Sort of a cop out copying other peoples work but my mind is blank , probably the whisky last night.


Don't part with your illusions. When they are gone you may still exist, but you have ceased to live. Mark Twain

I have never taken any exercise except sleeping and resting. Mark Twain

Never put off until tomorrow what you can do the day after tomorrow. Mark Twain

When we remember we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained. Mark Twain

Whenever you find that you are on the side of the majority, it is time to reform. Mark Twain

All you need in this life is ignorance and confidence; then success is sure. Mark Twain

Speak when you are angry--and you will make the best speech you'll ever regret.

It is possible to store the mind with a million facts and still be entirely uneducated. Alec Bourne

Education is what survives when what has been learned has been forgotten.

Education is a progressive discovery of our own ignorance.

If at first you don't succeed, find out if the loser gets anything. Bill Lyon

I can see a world without hate, without violence and without war. Then I can see us bombing that world cuz they wouldn't expect it.

no-one is a virgin - life screws us all.

war doesn't determine who's right, it just decides who's left

the believer is happy. The doubter is wise.

for every winner, there are dozens of losers. chances are you're one of them.

it hurts to admit when you make mistakes, but when they're big enough, the pain only lasts a second.

in the battle between you and the world, bet on the world.

it could be that the purpose of your life is only to serve as a warning to others…so naive

we are born naked, wet, and hungry. then things get worse.

don't lie - the government hates competition

I don't believe in stereotypes. I prefer to hate people on a more personal basis.

some people say we live in the best of all possible worlds. the scary part is that they might be correct.

i'd like to do my part to make the world a better place, but murder is illegal

i don't discriminate - i hate everyone equally

i hate life, i hate death, and everything in between just doesn't interest me.

those who live by the sword are shot by those who don't

“suicide hotline, please hold”

"I get to go to lots of overseas places, like Canada." - Britney Spears

War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.

To the optimist, the glass is half full. To the pessimist, the glass is half empty. To the engineer, the glass is twice as big as it needs to be. To the plumber, any liquid in the glass is potential income.

When your a fat little kid, there are no more see-saws...only catapults

I have the body of a god... unfortunately its Buddha

I can please only one person per day. Today is not your day. Tomorrow isn't looking good either.

There are 3 kinds of people: those who can count and those who can't.

Support bacteria, it's the only culture some people have.

They told me I was gullible, and I believed them.

"F u cn rd ths u cnt spl wrth a dm!"

well having looked at this persons blog , its more a diary ,, or everyday life , i was impressed 4 years and still running maybe 600 odd posts and i hasten to say not little posts either so thank you "backseat driver" for the quotes and the song Joeseph arthur and "honey and the moon". one of these never heard songs that has a certain quaility .

another month

i am wondering how to boost my enthusiasim these days, i reckon a little sunlight might help, or maybe the bird singing for spring , that always makes me smile, maybe the smell or new plants in the glasshouse and the change of colour in the grass. A few months yet before the trees turn green and nights get short . Now i started running last year bout this time and now after off and on kept it up, now suitably attired in lycra much to the horror of the mirror i look at , looking like a cyclist without the bike and funny thick bit on the bum . The high viss yellow makes it even more annoying for the cars who now can see me between there mobile phone texting . invaribly running is boring and having not mastered my ipod the same 3 songs become repetitive and one of my ears must be funny shape due to fact little earphone falls out . well where does this running talk lead to ,, sore knees and hips at moment and whether glucosamine works or not i forget to take it half the time , my 2 mile runs are now 4 miles going on 5 with a 7.5mile done recently , im keen to run 10 but whether or not i should build to this or just battle on with my runing partner im unsure , im tending to think training but treadmill training is mighty boring albeit we have our own, but running looking at urself in a mirror seems to make 1km seem like 1mile and god forbid ever running more than 40 mins on one , i did try and run backwards to break the routine , not a good idea and now im thinking if it possible to skip on one , needless to say i will let u know . another downside of running is the hills , but on the + side what u run up always means a run down on way home or if u do it in reverse then the opposite applies . Various methods of tackling hills have been tested , but i have to say chit chat is generally a no ... breathing is hard enough although "i spy" would work. i am rabbling on due to the fact im not going on holiday tomorrow but mrs is........... and i cant sleep . also i do apoligise for spelling ect ... what u read is what u get.. its me with my midnight brain . on a final note i must thank my running partner for putting up with my plodding along and general chit chat , i have to conclude that without her my first 10km would not have been run and my goal of half marathon not comtemplated. My 2 mile runs would still be 2 miles , so thank you k for pushing that extra mile.